honestly i love you so much

i wanna hold you longer please,but you never try to hold me longer

bangsat gue ketagihan kan ngeblog,hahahaha,gue pengen cerita sedikit tentang FO PDKT,sumpah gue merasa ditipu dijebak ama temen gue,akatnya jadi FO tuh ga botak,tapi kenyatannya???sumpahlah kesel banget gue,liat aja tuh anak baru entar gue ajarin yang macem2 ! hahaha *senyumsetan

heem,tadi udah cerita panjang lebar tentang kehidupan percintaan gue,ah iya,satu lagi gue pengen ceritain masa suram gue di smester 2 ini,sumpahgue ngerasa smester 2 ini kebanyakan maen,kebanyakan mikirin pacaran,kebanyakan macem2 deh pokoknya,padahal tuh ya gue semester ini ga sibuk sama sekali,organisai gaikut,panitia gaikut,beda sama semester 1 yang sibuk banget guenya,tapi nilai gue lancar aman,nah karena gue terlalu berleha2 di smt 2,nah jadilah nilai uts gue ancur jeng jeng,sumpah kaget plus shock ngeliatnya,yang dulunya pinter jdi goblok,yang dulunya goblok jadi pinter,heran gue ! haha,yaudahlah nah pas uas beuh semangat 45 belajar gue mati-matian buat nutupin nilai uts gue yang jauh dari harapan,dan akhirnya walaupun sedikit kecewa,yah lumayan lah buat di banggain ke orang tua dikit,walaupun mesti nangis darah buat dapetin itu,htapi sedih juga si liat temen2 nilainya juga jelek2,auh gatega ngeliatnya,apalagi nanti smester 3 ama 4,pasti udah kepisah2,soalnya gue pasti ngambil 3,5 tahun,sedangkan banyak temen gue ngambil yang 4 tahun,yah siap2 aja deh buat berteman dengan angkatan atas, tapi seneng juga sih akhirnya saya bisa langsung daftar sidang tpb,hahahaha

maybe i must learn to dont fall in love with someone too deep and too much,i must learn it,because something too deep or much will hurt you double it...i think,and i think if i fail or if i cant hold this hurt,i maybe 'vakum' from love world for the long time............

halo go Blog !yeah it's a long time since i wrote in this blog ;),today,i wanna share my life experience,wahahahaha
okey,i think we must start with my lovelife,yeah it's complicated i think,since i in a relationship with her,i think we can have a long relationship,but i dont know if it;s only in my mind or whatever,yeah several weeks ago,i found my girl tweeted with her ex,and i think,maybe you dont know this meaning of this word but i called it 'unyu',yeah i think they very very romantic,it's hurt me at all,and since it ,i dont know what happen to me,i always negative thinking to her,yeah maybe it's because they always meet every week,yah they are dancer in one entertainment,so they can meet every week,it's different to me,because i and her in a long distance realtionship,so i and her rarely met,i always negative thnking to her,i dont know,maybe because i dont know what are they doing during their practice or performance,it could be they often talk to each other,or anything elsei really really dont know,beside that,i and her dont have any topic to talk,we often quiet,yeah it's because she really interseting about korean,and i didnt know anything about it,it's diffrent with her ex,she and his had the same interesting,same entertainment,same job,maybe it's made me had negative thinking,because i envy to his,and someday i ask to her 'do you have any feel with your ex?' and she answer 'yes but a little' ,wow honestly i surprised with her answer,yah i 'galau',i feel it,ah i feel it,since she tweeted with her ex,and in addition her ex had the same feel with her,and just now i really really cant do anything now and i dont know what are they doing with her ex,i dont know she still love me or not,just now maybe i can learn to dont fall in love to deep with someone,and dont have too much expectations with your special someone,because if its once break,you will feel hurt so much