yap kalau lagi galau ngeliat pacar twitteran ama mantannya,enaknya tuh menghayal sumpah
iseng2 gue buka blog mantan gue,emang sih udah lama ga diupdate bahkan ga diurus,gue baca post2 lama dia,ah shit suddenly i miss her, i dont know,her words like take me to the school high times,and suddenly i miss you,dont get wrong,i miss the old person,now she's really different,i think,but something not different,her words,i really love her words,the way she write,she really good writer from old to now,maybe i can suggest her to be writer? ;p i still like read her write,blog or tumblr, i really like the way she write

aku pikir kamu gabakal bisa move on,dan ga berusaha untuk move on kalo masi berhubungan dengan dia,yah sekeras apapun usaha saya untuk pempertahankan kamu :)
yasudahlah ya,biarkan,saya juga lelah marah terus ama kamu,biar kamu nyadar sendiri saja kalo saya gasuka ngeliat dia begitu,(tapi kamu kapan nyadarnya yah,aku marah aja kamu ga sadar2)it's hurt
yah,yasudahlan lagipula saya sudah gatau mesti ngapain lagi,like you care to it,hhh,give up and pasrah maybe the best way
thanks :)
and now all i can do just act like i dont know anything, and wait wait,i dont know wait until she forget him,or wait until she tired to act to love me and breaks our relationship,who knows?:) i'm just wait until that day come
'you're so stupid syad'

garfield? tau kan itu apa? itu tuh kucing berbulu orange yg gembul
jadi beberapa minggu lalu tasya ulang tahun, nah gue bingung mau ngasi apaan
tuh,mau ngasi tentang korea2 gitu, takutnya dia udah punya dan gue juga gaterlalu
ngerti tentang korea,entar malah salah ngasi lagi, mau ngasi yang laen takutnya gasuka, serba salah nanti
kan,yaudah dengan nekat,akhirnya terbesit ide buat bikin kalung, dengan nama dia di
kalung tersebut, untung saat itu gue di jakarta, lagi libur, jadi bisa agak gampang
nyari kadonya,gue udah bikin tuh kalung dari awal pertama gue libur, sekitar awal
bulan,bahahaha niat banget yak,dan akhirnya jeng jeng kalungnya pun jadi, abis itu
gue bingung, masa iya gue ngasi kalung doang, haha, yaudah pas lagi keliling2 gue
ngeliat boneka garfield,sumpah itu lucu banget bonekanya kalo kata gue
sih, haha , tanpa ba bi bu langsung gue beli bonekanya,tanpa mikir dia suka apa engga
ama yang kaya begituan,hehe

yaudah akhirnya kalungnya gue taro di lehernya garfield deh,jadi deh kado buat dia,hihi

sebenernya garfield tuh ada tujuannya juga,karena hubungan kita long distance dan otomatis jadi jarang ketemu,bahkan ampe sekarang pun yang udah satu kota,tetep aja jarang ketemu,jadi gue pengennya garfield tuh ada disamping dia,saat gue gaada ato gabisa disamping dia,sumpah ini so sweet banget gue nulisnya,tapi beneran ini loh,wkwk
gue gatau dia suka apa engga,tapi sepertinya dia suka~~~~ ,lagipula garfiled ama kamu juga mirip kan,sama-sama gembul :p

emang ini agak sedikit aneh,saya memperlakukan 'anak buah' gue bukan sebagai senior junior tapi sebagai teman,hahaha awalnya mereka pada protes gue mnggil mereka dengan kata'gue' yang notabenenya harus pake 'saya' biar agak formal dikit,yah karena kata 'gue' udah melekat di bibir gue,yah jadinya tetep aja keceplosan,dan akhirnya mereka nerima2 aja,maaf ya dek,haha

gue itu sebenernya cuman megang 1 kelompok yitu kelompok 48,tetapi karena sutu hal yang saya juga tidak tahu FO kelompok 47 tidak pernah hadir,karena untuk mengisi kekosongan tersebut,jadilah gue megang kelompook 47 dan 48,dan jeng jeng,pertarungan dimulai,gue haru ngatur lebih dari 60 mahasiswa,harus presensi mereka dan mengumpulkan tugas mereka dlama waktu 10 menit,banyangin betapa riwehnya itu,subhanallah ya,

yah karena saya harus mengurusi 60 orang tsb,dan jadi lah ,gue jadi manusia super sibuk,disaat yang laen makan,gue masi sibuk ngurus tugas mereka,pathetic but funny :)
pas touring campus,gue juga megang tuh 2 kelompok,gue ngejelasin fungsi2 gedung,dan biasa sambil ketawa ngakak sampe2 DMT dan kelompok laen ngeliatin kita,haha,

gue : yah ini lapangan ini tenis,buat maen tenis *ngomong asal

Mahasiswa : nenek buta juga tau kak itu lapangan tenis

hahaha,sumpah ini bocah2 ngeselin juga,terus tiba2 ada yang nyeletuk

Mahasiswa : yah ini namanya pohon,ini namanya mobil bla bla bla

hahaha,sumpah dasar mahasiswa baru,gue cuman bisa ngakak aja ngeliat kelakauan mereka,kalo gue di posisi mereka dengan FO yang rada eror kaya gue,gue juga pasti bakal ngelakuin hal yang sama,wkwk

terus ada yang nyeletuk lagi
gue : kalian ga pada nyatet?

mahasiswa:kaka ga nyuruh catet,yaudah,lagian saya yang didepan aja ga ngerti paalagi yang dibleakang

sumpah bagai guntur di malam hari yang dingin,mimpi apa gue dapet anak buah kaya gini,yah emang si sikap anak buah mengikuti FO nya,gue nya santai selow,ga serius yah mereka juga kaya gitu,gue mah selow aja haha

dan puncaknya itu tadi pas bakti sosial,bakti sosial kan diluar kampus dan mereka dibuat 2 banjar,gila gue harus lari2an buat ngatur merka depan belakang hosh hosh
untung mereka anak2nya asik2 aja,gue sering ngecengin mereka tapi ujungnya gue juga yang dicengin,emang kalah jumlah si 60 lawan 1,hahaha

at least it's funny,yaah maaf kalo kalian dapt FO yang rada2 eror kaya gue,tapi percaya deh cuman gue doang yang eror,yang laen engga :)

pada hari pertama PDKT :
mahasiswa baru sms saya
GUe : dek,entar ambil baju PDKT di depan GSG yan di stand
M: oke kak,tapi rame banget,antrinya lama
Gue: yah gapapa sabar aja,pasti kebagian kok
beberapa saat kemudian dia sms gue
M : (denga bangganya ) kak,gue dah dapet,wkwkwk,gue terobos aja senior bengak itu,haha
gue : *speechless*
alamakjang salah ngajarin apa gue ke anak didik gue,sebagai FO gue merasa "gagal",hahaha

I'll wait until you move on from your ex

ada banyak yang mau gue ceritain,tapi ini saat saya ngepost disini,udah subuh,saya harus mandi dan kek kampus,tau kan dinginnya air bandung jam 5 pagi?bikin menggigil badan,yaks
kapan2 gue ceritain pengalaman jadi FO,it's full of experience,,mahasiswa labil,presensi,dan segala macemnya,hahaha

NKY,,



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i know i've been selfish,i know i've been foolish
cuman satu kata yg bisa gue bilang 'goblog lo syad,masi untung ada yg mau ama lo'
tapi nasi udah jadi bubur,semuanya sudah terjadi,gue yang terlalu posesif,gue yang terlalu negatif thinking,gue yang terlalu mengekang,gue yang egois,gue yang mau semua perkataan gue hrus diturutin,gue..gue...gue.ah banyak lah kesalahan gue,gue yang udah ngerusak hubungan gue sendiri,dengan seribu persepsi dan tuduhan,sehingga dia pun agak malas dengan saya,yah jadi mau gimana lagi,semuanya udha teelanjur,omongan dan tuduhan yang gue keluarkan dari mulut saya,ga mungkin bisa hilang begitu saja dihati dia,gue udah pasrah,hope we can start a relationship like 4 months ago

i really really like a words below my header "Cause love's such an old fashioned word
and love dares you to care for The people on the edge of the night,And love dares you to change our way of,Caring about ourselves"
i dunno why,i really like this words,and i love the song too

honestly i love you so much

i wanna hold you longer please,but you never try to hold me longer

bangsat gue ketagihan kan ngeblog,hahahaha,gue pengen cerita sedikit tentang FO PDKT,sumpah gue merasa ditipu dijebak ama temen gue,akatnya jadi FO tuh ga botak,tapi kenyatannya???sumpahlah kesel banget gue,liat aja tuh anak baru entar gue ajarin yang macem2 ! hahaha *senyumsetan

heem,tadi udah cerita panjang lebar tentang kehidupan percintaan gue,ah iya,satu lagi gue pengen ceritain masa suram gue di smester 2 ini,sumpahgue ngerasa smester 2 ini kebanyakan maen,kebanyakan mikirin pacaran,kebanyakan macem2 deh pokoknya,padahal tuh ya gue semester ini ga sibuk sama sekali,organisai gaikut,panitia gaikut,beda sama semester 1 yang sibuk banget guenya,tapi nilai gue lancar aman,nah karena gue terlalu berleha2 di smt 2,nah jadilah nilai uts gue ancur jeng jeng,sumpah kaget plus shock ngeliatnya,yang dulunya pinter jdi goblok,yang dulunya goblok jadi pinter,heran gue ! haha,yaudahlah nah pas uas beuh semangat 45 belajar gue mati-matian buat nutupin nilai uts gue yang jauh dari harapan,dan akhirnya walaupun sedikit kecewa,yah lumayan lah buat di banggain ke orang tua dikit,walaupun mesti nangis darah buat dapetin itu,htapi sedih juga si liat temen2 nilainya juga jelek2,auh gatega ngeliatnya,apalagi nanti smester 3 ama 4,pasti udah kepisah2,soalnya gue pasti ngambil 3,5 tahun,sedangkan banyak temen gue ngambil yang 4 tahun,yah siap2 aja deh buat berteman dengan angkatan atas, tapi seneng juga sih akhirnya saya bisa langsung daftar sidang tpb,hahahaha

maybe i must learn to dont fall in love with someone too deep and too much,i must learn it,because something too deep or much will hurt you double it...i think,and i think if i fail or if i cant hold this hurt,i maybe 'vakum' from love world for the long time............

halo go Blog !yeah it's a long time since i wrote in this blog ;),today,i wanna share my life experience,wahahahaha
okey,i think we must start with my lovelife,yeah it's complicated i think,since i in a relationship with her,i think we can have a long relationship,but i dont know if it;s only in my mind or whatever,yeah several weeks ago,i found my girl tweeted with her ex,and i think,maybe you dont know this meaning of this word but i called it 'unyu',yeah i think they very very romantic,it's hurt me at all,and since it ,i dont know what happen to me,i always negative thinking to her,yeah maybe it's because they always meet every week,yah they are dancer in one entertainment,so they can meet every week,it's different to me,because i and her in a long distance realtionship,so i and her rarely met,i always negative thnking to her,i dont know,maybe because i dont know what are they doing during their practice or performance,it could be they often talk to each other,or anything elsei really really dont know,beside that,i and her dont have any topic to talk,we often quiet,yeah it's because she really interseting about korean,and i didnt know anything about it,it's diffrent with her ex,she and his had the same interesting,same entertainment,same job,maybe it's made me had negative thinking,because i envy to his,and someday i ask to her 'do you have any feel with your ex?' and she answer 'yes but a little' ,wow honestly i surprised with her answer,yah i 'galau',i feel it,ah i feel it,since she tweeted with her ex,and in addition her ex had the same feel with her,and just now i really really cant do anything now and i dont know what are they doing with her ex,i dont know she still love me or not,just now maybe i can learn to dont fall in love to deep with someone,and dont have too much expectations with your special someone,because if its once break,you will feel hurt so much

YEAH I FORGOT ABOUT SOMETHING,ALTHOUGH I LOVE HER SO MUCH,BUT SOMETIMES I DONT LIKE HER HABIT LIKE WHEN SHE IS ANGRY ESPECIALLY TO HER MOM,ANYTHING WORDS LIKES DIRTY WORDS,A NOT WELL THOUGHT WORDS,AN EMOTIONAL WORDS CAN BE SAID BY HER,ESPECIALLY I DONT LIKE IT WHEN HER NOT WELL THOUGHT WORDS ARE DIRECTED TO HER MOM,IT'S NOT LIKE A GOOD GIRL YOU KNOW?? YEAH I HOPE SHE CAN RESIST HER EMOTIONAL ESPECIALLY HER ANGRY,YEAH I HOPE :D
BESIDE THAT HER FANATIC TO SUJU MAKE ME NOT COMFORTABLE,BECAUS I'M POSSESIVE,HEHEHE
BUT I DONT MIND IT,I WILL TRY TO ACCEPTED IT,I DONT MAKE IT A BIG PROBLEM :D
AND FINALLY I WANNA YOU BE A GOOD GIRL,GOOD PERSON,YEAH I THINK YOU CAN DO IT,I LOVE YOU SO MUCH

WHAT DO YOU THINK?? YES I LOVE HER SO MUCH,LOVE LOVE HER SO MUCH,I HOPE WE CAN CONTINUE OUR RELATIONSHIP EVEN LONG DISTANCE BETWEEN JAKARTA -BANDUNG OR MAYBE DEPOK BANDUNG EASILY,
DEPOK?WHY DEPOK?YEAH,SHE IS STILL GRADE 3RD ON SMA NOW,SHE FOLLOW INVITATION SNMPTN,AND SHE CHOOSE UNIVERSITY OF INDONESIA FOR THE FIRST CHOICE AND UNIVERSITY PADJADJARAN FOR THE SECOND CHOICE,HEMH MY FEELINGS SAID SHE WILL BE ACCEPTED IN UNIVERSITY OF INDONESIA,YEAH I'M HAPPY IF SHE CAN BE ACCEPTED,BUT I HOPE WE CAN CONTINUE OUR RELATIONSHIP WITH RIGHT WITHOUT INTERFERENCE,ALTHOUGH WE IN THE DIFFERENT WORLD,I THINK DISTANCE IS NO PROBLEM AS LONG AS WE CAN KEEP OUR COMMITMENT,
YEAH I LOVE YOU,ALTHOUGH YOU'LL BE IN DEPOK,OR JAKARTA OR MAYBE BANDUNG(I REALLY SHE CAN CONTINUE HER STUDY IN THIS TOWN:P) I STILL LOVE YOU :D

hell-o world,i'm back again,yeah i dont know where i should go,i'm frustated,i;m confused,i dont know what should i do,to face this reality,argh i still didnt accept this condition,but i must wake up,yeah world absolutely cruel, i wish i can forgot her :'(

halo,long time no see you on this blog,i'm very very busy lately,so i hadn't time to manage this blog,hehehe
now,i wanna share you about my lovelife :'(, several months ago i broke up with my GF,the problem started when i saw his tweet about her friend,but her tweet such as a girl falling in love with someone,she always said about her admiring to those boy,i dont like it,because i knew since she entered university,my relationship with her be tenuous, even very tenuous,indeed i rare communicate with her,so when i saw hr tweet,i thought she was falling in love with someone in her university,so i askd to her,and she recognized about it,but she rejected if she falling in love with those boy,and finally we broke up,i felt sad,mad at one time,and i still love her,until now,although now she close with hers senior in the high school,several time ago,i met with her again,but we didnt talk to each other,i felt awkward when i started to talk with her,plus in that place,there's a hers senior who close with my ex,ah i felt very awkward,i disnt know what must i do :'(,i still love her